Today is the official launch day for my novel, Catchlight.
I’ve been planning for this day for months. And I’ve been dreaming of it for years.
Here’s the raw, unfiltered truth of today: I’m feeling a lot of big, messy emotions.
Grief, pain, sadness… #allthethings
I did NOT see that coming. I thought I would feel triumphant.
But I’m starting to learn that sometimes the best and most amazing blessings can land first as devastating.
The day I got the news that Catchlight won the Fairfield Book Prize and would be published, I burst into tears.
Last week, when I found out that Catchlight was featured on Good Morning America’s 12 must-read books for October, I burst into tears.
And today, of all days, the day my book is releasing, I found to my surprise that what I really wanted was to crawl into bed with a movie and have a good cry.
So that’s what I did.
Then my best friend sent me flowers. An old friend I haven’t spoken to in years sent me a beautiful email when she heard about the book.
And reviews of Catchlight began rolling in from my launch team:
“impossible to put down”
“better than 90% of the books I read from the library”
“a must-read for the dark times we’re in today”
“a captivating read”
These beautiful gems landed like love punches on my bruised heart. And you know what? I treasure even that. Because it’s all a part of real life.
I used to think that my big, messy emotions were a liability.
Unprofessional. Unbecoming. Embarrassing. Get yourself together.
This is what I know now:
My willingness to go deep into emotions that are uncomfortable as hell is my superpower.
This is what allows me to write so powerfully.
Jacquelyn Mitchard, author of Oprah’s first-ever book club pick The Deep End of the Ocean, wrote this in her blurb for Catchlight:
“In the hands of a lesser writer, Catchlight could be a soapy collection of trauma dramas; but Law’s own empathy is so acute that these characters spring to life in a book that is part love story and entirely all-engaging read.”
The training ground for empathy is deep emotion.
So perhaps it shouldn’t be so surprising that release day is so emotional.
Catchlight is out in the world. I am so deeply proud of it. I hope you love this story and these characters as much as I enjoyed writing them.
Empathy and big emotions for the win.
October 6, 2020